Final..

finally,
finish performing..
exhausted came more on feels..
well, did everything come in a good way?
not really..
thinking back, i don't really know what i've done in the previous night..
i was only dimly play the whole song, somehow..
i was too nervous on that case,
haih..loser?
or i was just too tired?

whatever it is..
knowing the all-new year is fading..
yay!! back to school again..
i'm quite excited with the syllabus next year..
hoping for the best..
i know i can do well on this with your benediction..
you're a genius, well, sort of..
as a result, you do really have to do preparations for my silly questions XD

another few hours,
2010's coming..
let's raise our glasses and drink to it!
yipee~
busy, busy, busy..
- 2010 formation ( miss it much.. )
- violin exam ( doom~ T.T )
and, most importantly..
strengthen the basics for SPM..
tough mission but it's already in my plan..hahax!!
did i miss something?
well, if yes..tell me immediately..
thanks for the help =)

Uh-Oh~

i found that,
i'm becoming seriously dependent on you on anything..
any prescription for this?
^0^

Gloom Passed..

yep..that's what i've been waiting for..
one has already been comforted..
well, it's time for another..
waiting, waiting, waiting..
working hard while waiting..

getting the results, honestly..
i'm happy..cheers ^0^
yet i wasn't very very high like the way which i've expected, like everybody..
wondering why..
between,
what i've been showered the most is,
a huge sigh of relief..
such feel covered my huge sense of happiness, slightly..
nvm, it's just the departure of one journey..
the most important mission is waiting for our completion,
haih..signifying another rushing lifestyle..
maybe,
if i were really as high as everyone does..
i'll probably be jumping here and there,
then our band room and the whole school will never be in serenity and peace..hahax!!

as a result,
it's better for me to be calm..
and i am now =)

uh-oh..
six days more..
again,
a battle which we've to fight with our wills, hehex..
i'm hoping for it to come around..
it will probably be the last concert for certain members,
it's a must forming a full stop with no regrets..
come on, everyone..
CLB band members!!
enterprising attitude is much needed..
so, please..
be fair to yourself and others..
~^0^~

Bugging or Great Mood-ING..?

countdown for two days,
PMR results gonna out..
again for eight days,
Mr. Woon Annivesary Concert..
come on, please..
i don't wish that to happen on me again,
neither one..
T.T as for the one which is nearer..
well, nerves are still on the run..
i had no idea with the emotions that i have to put on my face..
haih..how if everything doesn't go on just fine?
that's only what i've been thinking for..
as for another function..
i do believe it depends on everyone of us..
what we want..does everyone making it clear?
hopefully, yes..

throwing them aside..
actually i felt that,
i wasn't that down..
in fact i could be high-er..XD
quite blur with the reason, lol..
maybe..
i was born to be happy..XD
no matter how upset i am..
there will be a comfort..lol..
a shoulder to cry on..
a pillow to cover my face allowing me to shout, as loud as i want..
a hand to hold telling me everything was just fine..
well?

allow me to laugh out loud..
ha..ha..ha..
there's a saying claiming girls are moody..
am i now?
nah~i don't think so..
i don't be down without a reason..
i'm just happy without reasons..
XD it's a good sign..
i've never been that happy for so long time before..
since the day, well, i admit that my life could hardly be down..
kekeh..
is there anyone telling me that i'm insane?
or i will be one day?

actually, i don't care for that much..
both, we are happy ^0^

Drowning Myself..

terengganu..
ergh, i thought it could be interesting, somehow..
yet it's totally different..
finally i realize,
i don't want anything by sponsoring..
the life sucks!!
i rather pay with my own money..
since you all sponsored that kind of stuff for us..
that dinner..
everything comes so grand..
well, within my imagination..
the very first step into the hall,
OH.MY.GOD
i can't believe it!!
damn damn YIKES..
wasting my time for one day only sitting in a bus,
and got that treat..hng!!
OFF..
for the last time..
don't ever plan anything like this anymore, rather no sponsoring..
we could be better..

between, our performance that day..
haih..
the judges' words do hurt us very much..
what then..
just keep them as a learning task..(that's what teacher told us)
wondering..
still couldn't figure it out..
why why why..
is there anyone giving an answer on my confusion?
why do we need to correct every mistake all over again like this..
yeah, ALL OVER AGAIN..
totally fed up with this..
can't you guys consider for others?
the moment of yours absence..
our prac will be considered as zero..
YOU ARE WASTING OUR PRECIOUS TIME..
i hate this..
why could someone be this irresponsible?
selfish!!!!!!!!!!
that's why we won't have any improvement..
mistakes have been repeated..
don't you guys, which absent for several times, ashamed of yourself..
if really, dislike attending those prac..
quit! yourself!
rather than affecting our improvements..

tomorrow, we'll be heading to KL..
self-tickling..
hoping for another miracle..
since it doesn't exist in the previous competition..

Holiday Life..

finally..
everyone is able to remember the plans, almost..
yet it doesn't seemed to be good..haih..
weird..i've already memorized them..
having no idea on reasons i can't focus on them when marching..
at all..
argh! upsetting..
how could this be?
it never happened on me before =(

looking at my timetable..
last night,
my violin teacher asked me to join a concert..sob..
totally tired for it..
can't sleep early when staying in KL..
every night till 11pm..
coming back still need to prepare for concert..
we must've been trained to become robots, lol..

yet, what comfort me the most is..
still having time to spend on my study..so lucky..
at the moment i was appreciating it, i felt somehow pity on u..XD
teaching me this and that without tiredsome..
whoa..remarkable endurance..
is it the result of being so calm all the time?
hahax..it's totally a spit-blood mission..
my apology, but i really need to have more knowledge on my chemistry..
and i know u won't get angry or slam the door going out..
that's the reason i press my luck..
but that's what u should do..heee XD

P.S. Well, u and our host of friends..all of u will just have to wish me all the best in the competition, really..i think miracle is needed T.T remember to call me when i'm in KL (whoever, one of the host, if not, i won't hang out with u all when coming back..XD)..not threatening all of u okay? i just want to make sure that i wouldn't drown under boredom..hey, actually what i'm waiting for in this trip are the dinner and workshop ^0^

Go! Go! Sure We Can Do It!

tired..
we're like those days again..
keep practising..
it's been nearly two years..
as a result, i'll be very dark..
again, sobbing T.T
yet, what i know is..
we've to get the awards..
of cuz, it depends on the hard works we've done..

guys, i know it will be somehow tough..
but i give u my word that it's only the beginning..
n it only does during practice..

the time we've finished all the plans..
we would realize the hard works done..
to achieve success, it's a must that we pay our dues..
no moaning,
no groaning..
we've to do it with our will hearts..
that's an easy task, right?
we're cheering when we've completed everything,
it's bcuz we finally achieve what we want..
no doubt!!

opportunity only knocks once..
to be very honest, we're so lucky having this..
we can't let it flows so simply but treasuring,
that's for sure!

i know we can do this..
the problem's just,

self-discipline..

High Mode ^0^

steps for another journey..
the pursuit of holiday-life enrichment XD
well, i've done it..
this friday, i will be following our school band going to KL..
oh god, KL again..
but what i strongly believe is,
this could be the funnest one..
hoping everything is in my plan, so that i can bring itik to have a look on a mystery house..
hahax..thinking of haunted house?
nah, yet that's what u could hardly believe..
that's the place i called it my second home =)
n the designer of the house..
is a boy which is older than me two years..only..(sob-ING)

yeah, i'm envying..so what?
lol..i'm just wondering that only two years..
but our brains can be this far too different..
hehex, self-tickling..

gotta admit that..
our school band has fully enriched my holiday time..thanks a lot..
if not i think my brain would probably rusted as a result of not using it for so long..
wow, i'm really happy..hyper!!!
well, it could be caused by the enrichment stuff..
n most importantly, u..
i never expect to spend much time with u when it's holiday..
probably bcuz u have ur school stuff to run, n i have my school activities..
yet u did it..hooray~
the vacation, which leaving several memories behind..kekeh..
the visiting, kekeh..sweet one!
n blah blah blah..
surely i won't forget those sweeties..in a short-period time..
as for long-term, i wasn't so sure..hehe.. =P

P.S. I think i'm the happiest girl in the world..i think u know the reason..^0^

Boredom..

haih..seriously i'm bored..
i'm really really sorry about that stuff..
it comes so swiftly that i'm totally lost..
really, LOST..
i didn't mean to, alright?
it's a formal practice yet,
i'm failed to attend it..
sorry..

three days ago..
i was totally in a relaxing mode..
whoa..longing feels XD
spending whole day on the games..
reaching midnight, i've got one message..

what the heck..
management remains unchanged, it's repeated..
i thought it will be a very huge reform..
what a disappoint one..
again..
i wonder whose mistake is for this time..
most importantly..
u asked for another plan in this short period..
freak us out!!
i know,
nothing to upset about that stuff but what u need to know is..
we've already planned everything..fixed..
you're the one who push us into a deep despair..
again n again..
when could u stop acting this way..
giving us no clue..
after settling u don't seem satisfy..
i don't think it's what called a responsible act..

P.S. lol..i was like singing my own songs..but i'm far too bored..by the way, it really sucks..i don't think there will be an end only if we're severely exhausted by ur action, surely it's a fact..

One Word..Wow!

finally came back..very very tired..
honestly, i've gone there for several times..
but this is the most special ever..
in my lifetime..i believe..
laugh out loud..cuz i'm very happy..
cheers~ ^0^

yet after this..
signifying another stuff..
time for another dash..
i'm ready for that, pretty sure..
as a student..
i have to put something aside..
not trying to let everything, no matter tiny or huge..
be a stone that hampers my way..
i want no psychological barrier to success!!

Go! Go!
Pop out of my mind!! ^0^

as u see..
ur brainwashing during our vacation is not a waste..
i'm already motivating myself..
nerves on the run..after 27 days..
i have no idea with how will my results be..
still, the past casts a gloom over my confidence..
the only thing which is inglorious is..
i'm failed to remove it..i know it's been a long time..
but when it does reach the time, what can be done?

well, honestly..
i don't have the courage to think twice..
since i'm very happy right now ^0^

Just The Beginning..

yipee, it's all a new day..
u know what?
nothing, just feel very happy..the great one..(yeah~)

finally..i'm able to spend time with them..
everything goes on like before, hahax!!
i like the feels..love it very very much..
u all still behaving that way..
pulling us out of the bookstore..
listen here..we haven't finish enjoying..u all gonna pay that..>.<

looking everyone was romping about..
i'm wondering when would the scene show up like this again..
of cuz it will be in my mind, always..
i mean in the real-life..
bcuz there's somebody of our gang will be flying soon..
n he's the third-dearest one to me..(yeah, it's u..lol)
asking what's going to happen after few years..
u declared that nothing will take place, the only thing is..
i will be mature a great deal over it..

mature..a strange word for me..
i never handle anything this way..
since u're always by my side to help me covering all the holes i've made..
but after a few months..maybe, was just guessing..
u will be heading to another country..it's impossible for u to fly here and there..kekeh..
no worries, i'm already having the ability to take care of myself..
i promise i won't hide anything unhappy or upset for myself kay..
i will call u immediately to spread out everything..^0^
that's a promise, u must trust it..
hey c'mon, u really have to be confident in me..
love u n the gang (cynthie, hawaii, vincel, yenying) n all~


P.S. Actually i've had a word for u heading to UK..it is..
don't forget to SMILE..although i know ur smile is just for me (XD, self-interested-ING..hey but that's the truth!!)..u know why i told u that..bcuz ppl would have a hard time communicating with an ICE!! =P

Big Headache >.<

i was just murmured..
it's been a long time i didn't fall sick..
the next morning waking up..
gosh, i've got a fever..
>.< it's a very very hard time for me..
that day our band got a performance at gurney..

well, u asked me to get back n rest..
in fact, i can't..
it's such an irresponsible act..
still, i took med there..
probably i was sweating n everything seemed to be still-okay mode XD
eating Chicken McNugget n drinking coke.. (omg!!!)

my best friend, Miss Itik, keep urging me to ask that fellow to come..
T.T i don't really want u to come, sweet..(forgive me XD)
i looked really ugly on that suit..
after getting back home, i slept till the next day..
i'm still waiting for someone to break my sleeping-time record..
perhaps, no one..=)

Congrate!

well, my dear sis..
i do really feel proud of u, well done!
i know u'll score that way, though..
still, it makes me happy when noticing u're so high..
nice smile..
u're totally a clever girl..^0^
don't forget ur mission..XD
ur pic with him..(sly smile)

sometimes, gotta admit that..
u're bad-tempered..
so, u've to appreciate that luckily u've got a sis..
who always ready to forgive..lol..

envy-ING u..
we both have a different brain..
visibly, u're much more clever than me..
even though u're younger than me, u know my syllabus..
n sometimes, i need ur teaching..hahax!!

u're such a great one..
forever, in my heart..
keep going in pursuit of ur dreams..
supporting!! ^0^

Satisfaction..

boring..
oh god, is that what can be done?
i miss the time before exam..
that's when we're all fighting to win in a sprint..
after exam..haiz..
reading..
reading without a target..
will that turn into succeed in the end..?

well, facebook?
nothing can be done there except for chatting..
shopping..
almost have it every week..
som..so that's what called the life after exam..
like a zombie..
heh..what an inglorious defeat..

by the way, hey u're almost done (u know i'm speaking of u, it's inconvenient to spread ur name here)..
distance is nothing..
just make sure u keep that promise..
if not..heeee..
ur ashes will be scattered in every corner of the world..XD
well, congrate!!
i'm fulfilled in ur presence..^0^

Little or Nothing..

what a dash!
well, i hope i will be able to catch up the syllabus..
ha..what a mess..
everything seems to be within my control..of cuz, a good sign..
but could it longlast..?
if yes, how long would it be..?

it's like the realistic, almost..
nothing is worth to be longlasted, probably bcuz no one would deal with it..
unless, it's the fool..perhaps..(sigh-ing)
i'm sorry that u've noticed that i'm still struggling..but it's hardly to be hidden n keep relaxing..
yes, i'm struggling, between the confusions..

well, think in a bright way..
everyone may have a hard time to go through, the problem is just the timing..
once we break the enclosure, we're able to see the light..
n now, our mission is..distance..
heh, i would like u to know..i hate everything that comes in distance..
distance makes me a hallucinatory sky..

yet, dun u get confuse alright..?
for me, i would like to tell u that, u really have to treasure it..
it can make u a bright future..XD n i'm waiting for the moment..
we'll be here waiting for ur presence when it's the summer holidays or whatever..
u're still having a long long time..it's not yet a rush, i just want u to know my exact thinking..
cuz it's hard for me to tell u on the phone or by word of mouth..lol..
thinking of the reason i immediately got the weird idea?
well, the first n the last of all..
it's just that i love u..
between, i'm so sure that they r, too..

P.S. i know u will come around n read this..i've told u mine, the rest r all depend on u..i know u're always there as what u used to say to me all the time..XD