Les éternités...

getting back my results,
there are further high and low of flowings through my heart core..
so sick with the moral examination..
grrr, i've no idea with what the scheme want us to do,
as a result,
many marks were deducted there..
why must our government force us taking examinations of moral values and chinese language?

i don't think they do make sense no matter in which corner of this world, do they?
and the changing of the scheme of SPM, again!
omigod, everything is totally freak me out..
they are just trying to control the amount of JPA scholars,
especially the Chinese students in Penang..
haz, i'm so envy of those studying in International School,
be able to learn whatever they are interested in and many disciplines to be chosen..

well, a practice held in the morning..
and something happened to be freaking me out..

curiosity overwhelmed me,
does it really matter listening to the words of those who is younger than you?
they, i mean the words, don't seem to be something which is "pain-hearing",
but why can someone ignore them so easily?

please!
not to sort everyone according to their ages or experiences..
i'm here telling you,
you are only a senior who walked on the pavement slightly further than us,
and that doesn't mean that you have such thinking which is absolutely right..
we're not the gods, even gods make mistakes..
what to say about a usual human..

no matter whoever you are,
or wherever you are,
you are always in the WRONG if you are rude..

i'm not going to apologize for anything that doesn't set up a reasonable case..
no matter which stage are you in or what status of you right now,
for me, it's only a rubbish,
and only rubbish could treasure the rubbish.

Part Of...

tomorrow will be the last day for this first-term holiday,
woohoo! i find myself so excited of it..
maybe the sense of anxiety does share with it..
that is,

I AM GOING TO TAKE BACK MY RESULTS!!!

whoa, wondering which grade i'm in..
especially for the three main branches of science XD
i need to strengthen my chemistry,
i want and i have to..
blah blah blah..
my friends are sick with me, all..
no doubts, me too sick of my own behaviour,
sweat, sweat, sweat!!!

hey, i was just kind of displaying a nice carpet for my own journey..
it shouldn't only be an imagination, hehex!!
perhaps..
imagination is only an intelligence of making fun..
doesn't seem to be the right path..

certainly, there's one thing i hate being in school..
surely everyone in my class abhors the same thing..
grrr, our
MALAY.LANGUAGE.TEACHER

i do really mad at him,
only to choose one or two students for the competition,
the whole-class students must prepare a topic each, ROOOAR!!!
honestly, i don't even prepare for my oral presentation..
what to say even this kind of lame stuff,
wasting my precious time, haz..

nevermind,
be patient for only four days,
i will be relax when reaching walt's house..
yay yay!!
delicious food and the attraction of those musical instruments..sharing of secretzz on the bed..
shhh, cyn..that's your favourite,
others will probably fall asleep, hahax!!

20 minutes later..
i will be heading to the cinema for the movie Alice In Wonderland..
hahax!!
so, bye for now~

P.S. Anyone with any knowing about scholarships, please do inform me..really in rush for that stuff..
.T.H.X.

Dizzy Dizzy All Around..

oh dude!!
so sick with the great explore for scholarships, T.T
i do really have to find ways not to waste my parents' money on my studies..
so, where shall i start huh..
after the SPM, i'm afraid it had been too late..
before SPM, haz..
can i handle this?

among tons of researches,
Korean Scholarship attracts me the most..
but i have to spend a year for the Korean language,
another four years for anything i desire..
aih, that doesn't really work..
walt had asked me to apply for scholarships in any university in cambridge state..
c'mon, do you think that is possible?
i don't think so..
i'm not the one having a professional brain..

"just give it a try, you'll get it"

i'll get it..
heh, tickling..
you know i would not touch anything that doesn't belong to me now..
and for this, it is forever..
hey, studying together with you might be a good time,
but..
although i can handle this particular task,
doesn't mean that i can handle it..
Continuously, lol..

Failure is only an event, not a person.
i keep telling myself..
with powerful weapons, it is easy to go through every task..
and that brings in one meaning,
if i have a blunt sword, i should sharpen it before the battle begins,
that's what i wish to transfer to your mind..

i have to spend time strengthen every further hindrance of myself,
only prepare for the "battle"..
now, i'm still working on them..
hopefully..
everything will come to what i have wished for =)

for formation practice..
haih, the return of those experts totally brings us down,
super-hyper down..
during the moments we have under the sun and sweat-bathing,
maybe they had been in somewhere laughing or relaxing themselves..
didn't they are those who should put more efforts than anyone else who present in every practice?
yet they don't..
how dare they ask us to repeat every plan One By One with them,
which we had finished two days ago..
no fairness does exist.

Relief...

am enjoying my holiday!!
hm, the examination isn't that tough after all, except for Malay Language and Chinese Language, haz..
by overall, i think it won't be too itchy-eye, lol..

Blessed is the season which engages the whole world in a conspiracy of love!

so, not to always blame yourself,
if there's an obstacle, there's a way going through it..
it only depends on your mind..
i've thrown my holiday for the band schedule,
at lease this afternoon, each and everyone of us had shown some improvements,
applause!! ^-^ i'm so so so high of it..hey, i could see the efforts..
not counting in those who are selfish, they don't deserve it, never!
what we've learnt today, just keep on going, can everyone do that?

let's not bother those "experts", they are the authorities in marching, so..
what to say, they can handle it "well",
even if they only practise once..
listen here, you experts,
whatever it is, don't affect our hardworks WILL DO..

"coming to the practices is much more tired than the time during examination"
a phrase made by bs.
haha, that's quite true..
yet, i've seen that our tiredness doesn't flow away like the stream..
it's quite worthy yea..
not to desperate so early, some days when reaching the competition..
surely..
we can sense the spirits and the cheers..

under the hot sizzling sun, i admit that,
i behaved in an emo way..
lol, sorry for that but it doesn't really work if i try to be patient,
the one got "killed" the most was me,
so i think it's better for me to say my thinking out..

P.S. I do have a happy lunch time with you guys, haha, enjoying the bah-kut-teh. What a family-gathering feelings, and don't forget the star which is made using our bare hands, cool!
For other 5 Upl frenz--pity you guys, hardly have a hang-out (without me XD), but sure all of you will have your own band practice right? Hey, actually, all of you can always follow walt to come back his b'worth home then we'll meet at my house, sweetest regards ++for you guys++